it's not like i don't try.
it's more like you don't care. 
so you stay resolutely on the other side, always looking away.
at the times when my ego fails me, i'm left to cower in nothing but empty air, meaningless as words never said, thoughts never translated into action. faced with the overwhelming evidence on why i'm can't measure up to others, with nothing to back me up to prove otherwise, i just feel like the most useless person in the entire world.
maybe, apathy is but a defence, just so it won't hurt so much. but i'm just so tired of pretending that it doesn't matter, that i don't care.
all the optimism in the world's not going to conceal reality.
maybe i shall go back and hide in livejournal.
must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide
you and i together mysteriously and always floating
Thursday, August 10
11:17 PM