go away, seriously.
warning: this isn't going to be the typical happy post whatever. stay out of my way. don't read. go to hell. (as you can tell, i'm not in a good mood. it's going to be an angsty post. it doesn't matter. just don't read. argh.)
we lost. it sucks to lose when you know you should have won.
I won't say anything. it isn't fair. the damn motions were slanted towards the opp. all the props of the first two rounds lost. almost all had definitional challenges.
It was so damn damn unfair. i hatehatehate everything. drown them all in hot boiling oil. go to hell. argh.
I'm not going to bother pretending it doesn't matter, for it does. It does. The other side didn't even follow our case; they posed a definitional challenge without stating it; they stuck to their case which was based on the assumption we were going to have a blanket ban, which so isn't true. The judges were biased, especially the middle one. He kept shaking his head at our side. I seriously think he has a grudge against rg girls. Seriously. The other side had
crap content. They didn't even rebut most of our points.
Argh.
it sucks to lose when you should have won.
it sucks to lose when you feel like your side should have won from an objective point of view.
it sucks to lose, seriously.
it feels as though we haven't won in a long long long time.
i suck.
don't comment on anything. don't do anything. don't ask me to do anything. don't comment unless you have something useful to say. it feels wrong to write when i'm in a bad mood. it feels wrong to write it here when there are definitely going to be people reading this. argh. all tags regarding this post will be ignored by me. i won't reply.
sometimes the world sucks so much i just feel like burying myself underneath. i don't feel like doing homework. i haven't done homework for the past two days. and it isn't even my fault.
i suck at everything, seriously. there isn't even anything i excel in, or even remotely good at. i haven't had that feeling of being good for a long long time. there just isn't anything anything anything to feel good at. everytime there'll be someone who's so much better. it doesn't matter. (but it does). i don't know. i just hate hate hate everything right now. i feel like being an introvert. i don't feel like making conversations. i don't feel like socializing. i don't feel like seeing anyone. seriously. i feel like shutting myself in my room. but of course i can't do that. can i ever do that? of course not. for there'll be school, there'll still be ccas, there'll still be tuition later. whenever you want something, you don't get it. whoever said that hope is a good thing is an idiot. when pandora opened that box, it was full of bad things. there was never anything good.don't mind me right now. i'm feeling so angsty it seriously isn't believable. don't tell me this post is angsty, for i know it. man. i haven't had a depressing post for ages.
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