A confession of myself
Ok, I figure most of you don't really know the real me. So it's up to me to give you all a brief introduction or confession of myself...But seriously, you can just read my quizzes column since I only put those that are quite accuate.
Me. I. myselfI am a contradicting person. I like to be in the limelight (yes, I admit that) but I don't like to be the center of attention when I have done something wrong, not right. I like to dream, but not so much that I can't tell the difference between realiy and dreams. I am quite selfish, but I expect others to exercise a certain degree of generousity or I'll get pissed off. Watch out when I get pissed off! It's seriously not a really good sight. But fortunately, I don't normally get pissed off in school. I may look like a happy person all the time, no worries and all, but I have my dark side. I may seem innocent to some, but don't be taken by my looks! As can be seen in my previous blog entries, I am dirty minded... haha...
I can be quite crazy and dramatic at times, but I hate it when I am serious and people don't take me seriously. I am a hopeless romantic, I like the idea of romance and the idea of my true love sweeping me away. I can be quite egoistic at times (suggested by Zhi Hua, but OF COURSE i won't be egoistic if my stuff aren't good, will I? *smirks*). I want to be famous someday (for the right things of course). I can be quite emotional at times...
i like...- romance! I would like my boyfriend to whisper sweet nothings to me, hold my hand, kiss me, flatter me(and of course be loyal to me, duh)...
- castles. i think they are quite romantic, with all the towers and all. The romantic fairytales always have a princess, right? eg: cinderella, snow white, Sleeping beauty(now that's what I call romantic! Waking up after a hundred years to a kiss!)
- France/Paris. They are supposed to be romantic right? I heard that the guys there aren't that bad looking either... haha... Anyway, I would like to visit Eiffel tower(preferably with my boyfriend of course) and all the magnificient castles.
- LITERATURE! I love all the imagery and metaphors, all the ironies and hidden meanings, all the drama and humour, all the romance in it! I love poems and drama (though sadly I hate analysing prose as I just like to read them)...
- the idea of a true love. I believe in a true love for everybody, waiting for sometime to just bump into me... The idea of love is so romantic, don't you think? Love can enable you to do stuff that you thought were impossible; love can enable you to treasure everything you have; love can enable you to share your life with your true love; love can break your heart but can mend it too(i love the idea of contradiction here); love can enable you to trust, to hold on to life; love can save you, can fill up the hollow hole in your heart. You feel as though you were never complete until the One came. You like the idea of having someone to wake up to, knowing someone is there for you. Haiz... so romantic... (I think I've been reading too many romance novels)
- romantic thrillers/ romance/ suspence/ sad(anything that can make me cry) novels/movies/ shows. I just love them! I like to believe in romance novels, I don't want to go to the real world to that. I like sad stuff, anything that can make me cry. Of course, I can get quite emotional at times, crying at parts of the movie the rest don't feel sad about. Anything that can make me cry, I consider it to be a work of mastery as if it isn't, how does it make you
feel? To feel the emotions of the character, to emphatise and sympatise with him/ her. See what I mean? :P
- my house, my room, my computer, books. I like my room a lot! I like the sense of peace and security it gives me. Sounds very cliche, but is true. I appreciate life's little stuff.
- Tampinies Mall, arcade in Bedok. Aren't they fun? I love dancing to the dancing machine though I admit I am quite lousy in them... But they are just so fun! I also love movies(who doesn't?) though I don't watch them quite often. I like movies cause of the atmosphere it gives. Snacking on the popcorn, drinking on your cool drink, your eyes fixed on the huge screen before you, your surroundings totally dark that you can't really see anything. Now
that's what I call atmosphere, along with a candlelight dinner.
- Rollar Skating(anywhere but at rocky places
including Pasir Ris park. man, that experience at Pasir Ris park was truly horrible...), Cycling(anywhere expect roads with lots of vehicles or humans walking or obstacles), Ice skating(i haven't tried it yet but since it's so similar to rollar skating and looks so totally cool, I've decided that I like it). I like the feeling of wind whipping through your hair, making you feel so totally free, so totally fast.
- Friends and Family. Let's give some names here.
Gold:
Family:mum, dad, sis, bro(which means my whole family, duh)
Friends: eve, sab, san, cin, zhi hua, jia mei, yee wei, shi ning, andrea
Relatives: bit, jia qing, san, hao, rui xuan, jing he, zi xuan, ri jing, er4 yi2, ah bee ah jiu4, jiu4 mu3, grandpa(both), grandma(both), er4 shu4, er4 shen3, gu1 gu1, gu1 zhang4
Silver:
Friends: nao, jeff, yi geng, zheng han, calvin, zhi ying, jie min, kelly, valerie chow, jackalyn, christabel, wei ling, sheena, hui wen, alex, hui min, mei ling, jessie, yi yin, kevy, wei xia, zi yi etc
Relatives: ah ling, ah qi, san1 yi2, san1 yi2 zhang4, ah1 suan4 jie jie, ji hong, hui feng, hui shan, san1 shen3, san1 shu4, xiao3 jiu4, jiu4 jui4, jiu4 mu3 etc etc
Bronze:
Friends: everybody else in 6J, everybody else in 202
Relatives: everybody else
People: everybody else I forgot to mention, except for those I hate which is mentioned in the hate section underneath
je deteste...- war. I think it's totally stupid. I mean, we are aiding the devil towards our extinction. Ironic, isn't it?
- diseases, viruses, harmful bacteria and germs. I hate them. They are so horrible, they torture humans, they kill us. Just another of the Devil's tools to get rid of us.
- Invertibrates, and that includes every insect and every spider and scorpian. I find that they are totally disgusting and horrible. Cockroaches have so many germs it's scary. They are practically germ bombs. I wish I could just make every one of them disappear without affecting the rest of the food webs or chains.
- Comprehensions. In either language. I hate them, and they hate me as well. Sad right? I don't mind compos, they allow me an opportunity to create something. Compres, though, are totally stupid and don't help in anything. Eww.
- Certain teachers, namely: may tan, ynps principal now, fatty meatball, madame
patricia teo, mrs kan(my p4 teacher)
- Certain people, namely: Ee ming, Quan Xiang in p4(wondering why only that year? Well, he was my partner for that year, and he bullied me like siao. teased me, taunted me, irritated me. I was ready to cry. But for the next two years, heaven has opened its eyes and he sat in front of me. I took revenge with staple bullets, eraser bits and a group of loyal friends), Jasmine Sim (she is so damn proud, arrogant and conceithed! She can cry at anything. Her mother has an abundance of free time, coming every time she cries, which means
a lot. You know, in p4 I got first in the mid year exams, just luck. And it was a library session, our class was in the library to watch a video. She wanted me to move over, but a simple
excuse me was not enough. She said, "Oi, move over lah, you think you get first I scared of you meh?" I can't forget the incident ever, and end of year she got first and went over to Maha Bodhi, much to my relief).
my memories...- now this is during P6, after the exams. i had a crush during P6, my hormones running wide and all. So anyway, I kept on starring at him throughout the year, made it so damn obvious that I crushed him. I suspected he knew it. My friends, being my friends, loved to tease me about him, going about going to tell him and all. And so it was after PSLE, during a lame games day, and my friend was showing me another friend's autograph book with his photo inside. So i made a nonchalent comment that he was quite cute there, and my friend threatened to tell him. I was quite fed up with all the threatening, thus replying with, "Tell loh tell loh." And so she collaborated and cooperated with my other friends, and when they came into that particular classroom they were going all about "Melody likes you leh!" Haha, I was quite crazy at that time, didn't know how to handle, and so I shouted across the room and professed my crush for him. Don't even know whether he heard me or not. Just know that he commented to my friends something along the lines of "I know" and surprisingly enough, I gathered enough courage to ask him to write my autograph book afterwards. Now I don't know what's so special about him. :P
And that roughly ends my confession.
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